I'm FKING angry right now kae.Whats wrong with my mother huh.She seems to not TRUST my cell.Hate my cell leaders.No Cell Outing,I put up with that!But now she wont even let me go for this worship thing tomorrow.What does she want?She wants to stop me from getting what i ever WANT.She wont let me get my fave books.She wont let me do so many things.

What does she want?Does she want me to QUIT this whole damn cell thing?Well.I know i've been a damn nuiscance since the day I've joined the cell.I know.I know.I saw it coming.I hate this.So I bet if I quit.It'll make both of them happy.Her and the cell leaders.Well.I'm so damn tempted to use all the vulgarities in my beautiful vocab.But I will not.

Let me just say.I DEFINITELY HAVE INJURED MY ARM OKAY.BUT BECAUSE I TOLD HER AFTER SHE SAID NO,SHE THOUGHT I WAS LYING.WELL.HELL.THAT.ALL MY FATHER COULD DO WAS KEEP MUM.THE WORST THING OF ALL.AT THE STAIRS,HE TRIED DOING SOME AIKIDO MOVE ON THE INJURED ARM.IT DID HURT.AND I YELLED AT HIM.ALL HE SAID WAS"AIYA.STOP PRETENDING LAH."FU*&!@ THAT.

CANT ANYONE SEE THAT I'M HAPPY TO BE OUT OF HOME.I just dont understand.Heck it.I'm crying now.DAMMIT.Why am I crying?Brandon,we're on the same boat.My arm IS aching.But since she thinks it's funny.I'll show her.I WILL.

Tomorrow,at swim training,I WILL train.I WILL show her that since she wants it her ay she will.I've seen this happen before.I WILL get bruises all over my right arm again.But she WANTS that doesnt she?FINE.I'll give that to her.

I'm going to show her who i CAN be.But I chose not to a year ago.He locked the monster in me up.But she's letting me loose.So she's getting the DARK side of me.

I'm going to buy the books she told me not to.She's going to get some of my attitude.We're going to have a cold war.I am going to not tie my hair at all.I am going to disobey EVERY word she says.

Life is so damn uinfair.Why do the other kids have such parents.Trust them.Love them.Shower them when they know that their child needs something.It's like the saying goes.There's always greener grass at somebody else's place.

BRYANNNNNNNN.Come back from America right now.Please.I really miss you.Need you.I really really cant do this anymore.

Bleh.That felt better.*Takes in deep breaths*
Okay,On a BRIGHTER NOTE.On the 24th Oct,It is JOSHUA'S BIRTHDAY.WAY TO GO KID!!!!!(oops.I meant boy.Teen.Adult.Grandpa.)Well.He's short,but just beside Shane,HE;S THE KINDEST BREATHING THING I HAVE EVER MET.

God.Please.Bless.Them.Please.Bless.Me.Please.Bless.The.Ones.I.Hate.Please.Help.Me.To Cope.AMEN.
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